Well I have learned a lot. I have learned a lot about hate and if you have a bad perception of life and carry around hate for another person that you hate sometimes you go down the rabbit hole and never come back. For some that is a life time for some, they don’t ever recover. Some sit in their shame until it becomes a paralyzed mess that they are in. Only staying focused on the shame and what people thought of brainwashed and conditioned to live in a defeated state on mind it is amazing how much of this is true. my second husband and I have been attacked in so many ways and these attacks want business as usual. No reconstruction In my protest to the world, I guess I was just going to sit in my house until I died cause I thought everyone hated me, cause, I could not get some new drug laws passed and I would not do it on my own not necessarily, that I would not do it why would I try if no one was on board well frankly I have not tried I have been worrying about everything else and not the thing I had set out to do me and my ex-husband many many years. I thought well no one will hear what i have to say about the subject and by my sad sack way or approach with would they. So I’m going to give it a go. ill make a website and see if i get some crowd sorcing. It kinda seems like all of this kinda so made up exactly like the drug world is which is a bunch of deception and lies and a shit ton of half- truths we have used it tho as a way to cope with our problems over the years. By people just wanting the check they will shame lie steal and kill all for a little piece of the pie. that looks really scary like all the things that i didn’t understand that looked scary to me
Our need to please our parents is great than the need to please ourselves to do something right to make them proud it is a hard thing to accomplish it really is. For us to really make a decision about things you have to know what your government does first. That is killed in mass amounts if you take there drug money. what this has actually been in our world today. sorry for the blind it has been a drug war. This is what it has been. In the middle of this battle what has been on our backs has been all of the lies and deception it completely ruins families the deception of it all is what ruin families it is what your entire family will do to you if they take that small amount of money away from them. they do not realize that what they do is put it in the world bank for me and you I think that was the original plan when it started years ago. We all around here or world bank owners so why again would I be taking your money just tearing the clan apart don’t be crazy really. If looks is what they go by around here i would look really good with some of that money. i wonder if i had some of it if they would pay attention when I’m talking. We should not have an ultimatum about a dang thing this is our generations voice you have been lied to longer than me.