Trains, Jesus, and Murder ad the gospel is in somewhere. I keep wondering if my family didn’t have so many rules and if we could live peacefully. if they didn’t have to impress their agents and look perfect to the general public cause that would blow their cover on the count of the bad they do. I have finely decided that it isn’t really bad what people will do to stay alive. I also have finely realized as much as I talk to my parents they will never come out from under their lies. I join illuminate recently and I figured that if I did that someone might trust me again from the slander I have endured even close family will not speak to me because of their own guilt about what they did to me. I have told friends around here not to work anymore for the hateful me and when they got asked to do something they will come to us. This is the way we will fight back. because I what they have done to everyone. They got these men when they were young right out of ydc promised them the sun moon and stars. They were not going to give them a thing because we know too much from the being. it would be small if any let them sell they think they are given something when they get that. Then they put their morals to the side just where they wanted them. Then this is what they do what they say to do. I have always wanted more for these men for they are for greater people than these people want them to believe. These people cause so much shame to a person. Going through all of this lately, confirmed everything I knew ready I told Charles that if they were going to give him something they would have done it. Since they haven’t they were never. The saddest thing is that this is family. So I figured out that KSU and Tallatoona had a drug program and I’m sure that Elizabeth had written the Grant for it. She had written many grants for them during the time she worked there and still wrote them after she left. I don’t like talking about people really I don’t. But that is so underhanded and I thought we were friends. Elizabeth started working at KSU for a while. John Popham I guess works a little in all the schools. She had cheated on her husband with someone that worked there, I guess sex lies and videotapes. I guess that is a thing for all of us. Look what all we have been around none of us are normal really. From what I had read KSU had I think done some foreign grants which I think some knew about it some reason they were saying through KSU it was wrong. the sex lies and video tapes what abuse really the things and the persuasion they have done to women just to get what they want and manipulate women to do bad things because they can. if they wanna be safe in the world and need a bomb shelter while we kick up shit then yeah not right. So really I can understand why some have done that because they were the property of the state. I didn’t understand their pain and they didn’t get mine. Really it has to do with our mental state all of ours. We should have done this completely differently fessed up got mad then dealt with it none of us are perfect, but I think when all of this is completely over maybe not in a bad way hell it’s better not as much as people have tried. Since I was not with a group don’t think Charles was either I may be wrong but if so their still wrong we all are. Our family should be together anyway the facts are they know all the things these people have said. I don’t believe and i still may be wrong that all of my friends would have thrown me under the bus at all this was not our battle this was hate from another generation that was pushing us into hating each other because of these other people’s selfish greed. As for as groups go was this a competitive thing i didn’t know fully about i imgine they would do this. DErik all out good guy he had joined the masons and really he didn’t know what he was getting into his sister died many other things happened to him i think they was just getting him isolated and no one know this war like i do. When she was gone on a business trip derik called me and Charles when she was out of town ask us to come over. we did told him about all the crazy thing going on around the house. Elizabeth called and then she talked to her son when deirk got the phone she said with a load voice i told you we were not supposed to talk to them they was firm on that.! this was someones manipulation some ones game. A community project and the worst thing about it I would have never done it to them. Elizabeth called me up one time when she was thinking about divorcing Derik. She said that she knew that i would know how to felt really we have always been all of us good friends she has always cared where she lived and what she looked like always bowing down to be so good. When Ragan my daughter was 15 years old she was learning to drive this man was in a car with some drive he drove around her fast like she wasn’t driving fast enough swerves to the side of the rd and gets out was yelling looked at Ragan throw up his hands a cussed her she was scared to death i posted what she described as the car. I went back to the first facebook that got hacked the same car i described they still drive was elizabeths brother then. linda leachman and fred work hand in hand she would throw the grant money around he was helping boys most of the time from lindas grants. They got them boys moving things for them long time ago and they got stuck in their crap someone else’s crap. I have never seen the THE FAMILY CONTRACT and if anyone had shared with me what I was and not made it a game like my parents did it was really just hurtful. Then not a soul and still no one not one person says a thing. But people kinda had this planned out. it was so mixed up what Amy and Walt did too maybe they wanted the best. Whatever may have said she participated too. if that was the card her mom and dad used that was very wrong as well. They knew all of them what they would do to me early on. With every Amy heck we used to lie about being sisters well we thought at the time it was i wanted to have brother and sister so bad while growing up i really did. Not so sure now nah I still would I would like to have my friends back at least So much of that was fueled by these men that hated each other that pulled our generation in it and even Paulette they sure could use a minute to grow the heck up it is sad this was their revenge, not ours. I think if it had to do with us we would have let everyone go. But since Paulette and john could not do their dirty deeds that were just a cheap way to pay clan boys for working they should not lose anything they go cause they deserve every bit but she had no right doing what she did to me from the beginning from DeAngelo please the coating everything she had a hand in because the two ladies didn’t want me to find out. LInda and Paulette so really with deangelo living out there and all the crap they had done it has been so premeditated i would have shared any thing i want this over and i want my friends back. Fred or who ever needs to get good advice from so ones else and let me be with family. Those that are really bad need to go to the second chance then we can sort it out. but i should be a part of that.

Linda
john
paulette
lewis
terry
winfred
fred
the rest they passed with covid
donna she would n’t get far from her sister she told terry one day on the phone they will figure it out they are smart. the next day she was crying her eyes out. maybe becasue she knew what she had lost already these are hateful greedy mean people and they thought i was. Truth is i have forgiven all of these people i don’t why I’m pleedging I have lost to much for these people to play with my life to not think i am good enough please and the morales they dont have why even blow smoke they shouldn’t they no reason to i have attacked with Rf all my life now that what ever is done was done they never wanted peace to began with

i guess the Lewis guy way he showed his ass they haven’t done crap with that mountain other than pull off of it for 3 years since it was a set up and i know what all they done now they broke every law in the land well maybe il; tell you more when i file a Manga Carta