I know its hard it has been hard for me. don’t give them something to remember and don’t kill me off of a sript I have already lived my life as everyone else wanted it to be. This is what my peers around here have done as well i want the life that has always been hard for everyone around here we really couldn’t have lived this way. This is not hollywood it takes a while sometimes to get over what happens to you in life and if there sick way of getting property and messing up your life was this when you screw over someone else it ends up hurt you as well. if yall Boomers this is time to make your self great. if you think God was okay with you killing people and belivev it or not someone said they killed people it was for Jesus no it was not. Now they might have thought this we have always been told something different i heard i would be used as a sarific gift to god to help them get to heaven they stopped that long ago and if i turn up dead they wanted my land so lock them up two. they want to blow up america cause they want get caught with what they did. Really since i have went through this i did want anyone to go to jail not a soul . That will have to be someone else’s deceasion or group. if you would belive that i mean it. All i wanted was the truth or advice or just love. The outlaw thing and maybe i can speak for all of my generation we do not want this kinda control really not from our peers that should know this is wrong, So this is how the two-faced shit works all the while people don’t want to be a part of this not my generation we don’t want to be a masons and the ones that are in it want out. If you knew there heart this is what they would tell you we have two groups that joined together and hey we all would like some money but kill a soul for it we don’t want none of us do. forgivness is what we should do cause really in the eyes of God im sure we have all let him down in some way. Heck no one can tell the truth at all how would we know someone intent. What also makes it so dang hard is i love everyone of you. Van helped me so much well he was support with all the Rf coming in i was out of my head it had nothing to do with drugs and everything to do with freedom of speach and being included in great things i had waited all my life for people made me feel empty alone in the world and confused why i wasn’t loved. Then i felt like everyone was looking at me like the enemiy im not in a group loyality i am fercely loyal person and i get mad when i feel like someone has done wrong. I have never already felt like i wasn’t good enough by myself. Russia wants to blow us up and the slave bible that we have That is missing half of the bible and people don’t get that. They think the world is solved with nothing but roman rule jailing people max sentences for pot and other drugs when you sell to catch a terriost in a small town people have got emtrapment for drug changes cause they were doing the same thing as the cops in this town we have a dubble standard in our government no one is on the same page, we don’t know how to talk about it it to taboo i suject so we can kill all the jews and say we are savin the world from terriost evryone should talk and say what they mean. this is why we are devided cause we sit in our groups and don’t say a thing. One this it says in the bible don’t lean into your own understanding. another thing it says is Only god can judge me maybe pauline doesn’t know that. maybe i don’t know the whole story to say I hope not